The Laughing Heart (excerpt)
your life is your life.
know it while you have it.
you are marvelous
the gods wait to delight
How It Was
I used to spend a lot of time worrying and wondering. What if this happens, what if this person does that. What a waste.
I was angry and it took all my time.
I would think and wish negative things for people that I perceived hurt me. Or people who I thought were selfish, mean- spirited.
I thought I knew what they should think and feel. In my head (and heart), I was certain I was right.
How It Is Now
Today, thank goodness, I am no longer certain.
I’m not certain that I’m right. I believe that how other people feel and think is their business.
This doesn’t mean that unacceptable behavior is acceptable. It means that I don’t have a corner on what’s right.
I want to live up to my ‘marvelous’ potential.
One way to do that is pay attention to my attitude, my words, my thoughts. What if the sweetest, kindest person I know could hear everything I said? Would they be shocked? disappointed? hurt?
When I am driving, talking, working, relaxing… I pretend that the kind, generous person, who deserves only the best… is listening. Am I’m working to make her proud.
In the meantime, I look in the mirror and work to be proud of the person I see there. After all, this is my life, and I intend to ‘know it while I have it. ‘